White and Blue is the Official Student Publication Saint Louis University, Baguio City, Philippines with editorial office at Rm. 06 Student Center, Saint Louis University

“I know nothing except the fact of my ignorance.”-Socrates

I am a work of art. A creation made by awesome Hands, uniquely and beautifully made. Everyone is the same I, human yet wonderfully different and equally special.

It is just such great fascination that even with the billions of people on this earth not any two human beings look, think, act, & feel the exact same way. Sometimes I like to ponder on the thought that somewhere out there I have a “double ganger”, living the life I have and sharing the identity I have. There are days when I think I have lost myself that I do not know who I am anymore. I could be delirious or just plain stupid. Because setting aside everything else, I think I am seriously torn between my biological roots and the motherland I grew up in. Every drop of blood in my veins is Chinese, even my physical features evidently tells me so. But I was born and raised in a land not of my own heritage and descent, the land known in Asia as the “Pearl of the Orient”. I speak in three languages (one of which in three native dialects) — English, Chinese and Filipino, none of which I could fully express myself in. I am immersed in the culture of eating balut and close family ties, yet I long to journey to my lost roots of steamed dumplings and kick a** kung fu. I am Chinese but I barely know any history of ancient China, and I can’t exactly claim to be a Filipino when I am not even wellversed with Tagalog. So I do not exactly understand why I am here but I am thankful for who I am and who I have become because of all the influences I was exposed to. I am who I am. If am a color, I am neither black.

Rediscovering the Red Giant in me

Nor white, I could be grey or orange or any other secondary or tertiary color in the color wheel. I am a half-baked macaroni or a medium rare steak. The Philippines labels foreigners in their nation as “Aliens”, maybe I am an alien, an extra terrestrial entity from outer space, or a new breed of human being or a new generation of merged cultures. Anyhow I do not despise my heritage or who I have become because of how I was raised. In fact, I am proud of who I am. But of course I would love to discover more about the traditions and customs of the two nations I am most closely to. I would surely be glad if I will be knowledgeable enough to talk about the Three Kingdoms of China or the secret revolutions of the socalled Indios. Excitement reaches as I realize I have still so much to learn about. Life is sweet and my youth has a long way to go. So let my journey begin. “People see only what they are prepared to see.”- Emerson

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I owe this column to my mom, dad and siblings. =) Thanks to God always. Thanks to ate mitch for all the help, I survived third year! Yeah! Congrats to ate rods, ay on the way to being a lola na ah, hahaha! Maraming salamat din kay kuya Jeof at ang buong music team ng VCF. Sa aking pinakamamahal na barkada (BBS), nakakasawa ng banggitin ang lahat ng mga pangalan niyo ah, basta you know who you are. Pam, you know I’m always here for you, pero si Lord ang pinaka-idol natin di ba? (^^;) Binabati ko si Jeddahn Rosario at si Lester Fernandez {o na, BBS ka pero special mention, hehe} thanks for the support friends, pati na din ang mga friends ko mula elem at high school na Louisians pa rin hanggang ngayon sila Nix, Takaks, Paris, Bren, Donna at kung sinu-sino pa dyan! Thanks a bunch of course to my Wyt and BLu family!-mga Bathala nuon at ngayon, at sa lahat ng mga kalokohan kong natutunan ko mula kina ate amai, ate zg, kuya luke, kuya rod, kuya dandan, kuya dave, tan , jeff brian, joem, kuya bry, kuya klein, kuya froi, kuya danilo, kuya ford, kuya sylver [Happy Grad sa mga gagraduate na! Godbless sa future niyo!] Special thanks to Juls, as in dude, break a leg! Of course, thanks to Sa mga hindi ko nasama dito, sori ha, next time nalang, I love you guys all the same! ^_^ “PATIENCE IS A VIRTUE BUT TIME IS GOLD”-Quote for this broadsheet issue mga tsongs at tsangs! Kung may comments, wild reactions or suggestions kayo sa publication o sa section ko, please do e-mail me here: This e-mail address is being protected from spam bots, you need JavaScript enabled to view it . Xie Xie!

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